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Sunrise over the east mountains. I have an amazing view from our patio. It's my favorite place.
It's a trying time for me right now. There are things that are just too complicated to explain, and too complicated for me to understand. There's no need to worry about me, it's just personal things I need to figure out. I turn 19 next month. That's still so young. I have so much I want to do with my life. So many goals to accomplish, so many things to see and experience. I try to be as realistic as I can, but sometimes my dreams get the best of me.

Yesterday was definitely rough. As I mentioned before, I was here at Sensory Sweep at 8 a.m, then headed straight to Denny's at 4:30 p.m. I was suppose to be off by 11 p.m. No one left Villa the key to the closet where the AC was, so we had warm air blowing, and the temperature in the restaurant was 84 degrees. It was miserable. Villa and I would take turns watching the floor as one of us would go stand in the walk in freezer. Here's me chillin in the freezer last night.
It honestly felt like the south's humidity, no joke. So, as usual, Jessica was late, then when she got there finally, she said she had to go on break, so I had to stay on floor until 10:30 p.m. How lame?! I was livid. Thank goodness Villa is so cool. Villa is in training for being in a management position, but still serves too. She was a lot of help. Usually, on Mondays, it is just me on the floor until Jessica gets there at 10 p.m. (which never happens). Then I'm off floor, and do my cleaning side work until complete. But Lupe was the buss boy, so it was ok. Lupe is 18, and Hispanic. He barely speaks any English at all. So, he and I teach each other. He calls me "mi amore" (his love) and "mis pecas" (pecas is Spanish for freckles, I'm "his freckles"). He's fun to goof around with. Plus he's super helpful and funny. This is Lupe.

So, I'm in for another 16 hour work day today. I know, everyone's envious, huh? Ha! Yeah right. I just have to keep a smile. This is what I chose for myself, so I can't do too much complaining, but I'm entitled to some, right? (: I miss y'all so much. Not a day goes by when I don't think about y'all and my best memories with each and everyone of you. Know my heart is still in good ole' South Carolina, sweatin' with the rest of yuh. I can't wait until we're together again. Much love to all of you.