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Here I am at work again. But today, I am professional :] Things to do.

Well this morning was BAD. I got up to find this RIDICULOUS letter from my anti-mormon roommate, the INSANE (literally unbalanced) girl, Jen. She had cut off our power and gas even though Britt and I had already given her cash for the payment. Little did she know our apartment complex gets charged a BIG FAT BILL when someone's power or gas gets shut off. So, I am making Jen sign off the lease. She cried, but I'm sick of all of this. I'm sick if having her even more anti-mormon boyfriend sleep over all of the time and eat our food. It's really uncomfortable to Britt and I. Goodness knows I can't afford another mouth to feed when I can't even feed my own...

Things are super hard money wise. I've been sick, non stop vomiting for 8 days now. Stress? That's Kayti's suggestion on what it is, and I"m pretty sure she's correct. I just start thinking, then have to run and hug the toilet. I fell asleep on the bathroom floor last night... Yah. Sad, huh? Ha.

I've been in touch with Stephen. He's going back on the field tonight. (For those of you who don't know, he was hit by a car, and really damaged his back... badly). He comes home in 6 weeks. And we have a date on December 12th !! He has made me smile through all this horrid crap this past week. I had a girl from my ward reach out to me yesterday. It made me feel great. Really. Like, I wasn't just a number.

I got a challenge from two sister missionaries I approached at Temple Square, Sunday. I'll be fulfilling that tonight.

My dear family,

I must say that it feels SO great to be out of the clutches of drugs, alcohol, smoking, and partying. I feel so well and alive. Well, I'm still sicklier than ever, but I'm alive and still out here! Thanks for all of your love, suport, care, concern. Please know I am well. I am strugling hard. But with my mentality, I am well. I'm finding my way, and happiness is once again, slowly restoring itself upon me. My thoughts and love are forever with each and everyone of you.

Love,
Katie Belle